Gone...? [It's a confusing series of statements. He wishes he could remember all the things that happened in the dreamscape a little better. That small child seemed to have really muddled the water on all accounts.
But he at least remembers enough about the museum in his head to answer this. Or, he thinks he can.]
The child... the child is the past. He resides in a museum of forgotten things. Some things are forcibly forgotten and some of my choosing. That child that you met, that everyone met and loved so dearly does not exist inside Kira Yoshikage anymore. He's a forgotten thought of things that once were. Fears and insecurities and innocence that I have removed from my person because I do not need them or want them.
The man I am now and the child that was are two forces that cannot coexist. When they do... the collapse... and that is why I was asleep for so long.
You're trying so hard to do something that does not need to be done. Fix or save... I cannot decide but I know it cannot be done. I am not a machine. You can't rewire me and hope for the results you want. I am me, Kira Yoshikage, and this is who I am. It cannot be changed... at least not by your methods, whatever they may be.
What you fail to understand is that while you may not like the person I am, I do! I love the man I am and I relish in all the things that I do. It took a long time but I am completely happy with how I am. I enjoy what I enjoy and I accept myself for them. Perhaps you should learn to do the same when it comes to yourself and stop worrying so much about me. As far as I am concerned... I'm perfect. And it took a long time to feel that way about myself considering my enjoyments and what I do. But I succeeded... and you and all the rest are not about to make me feel differently.
I aim to be happy. Pretending or changing myself to appease the masses who refuse to understand me will not lead to a quiet and happy life. No, dear Marco, Kira Yoshikage is fine as he is.
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But he at least remembers enough about the museum in his head to answer this. Or, he thinks he can.]
The child... the child is the past. He resides in a museum of forgotten things. Some things are forcibly forgotten and some of my choosing. That child that you met, that everyone met and loved so dearly does not exist inside Kira Yoshikage anymore. He's a forgotten thought of things that once were. Fears and insecurities and innocence that I have removed from my person because I do not need them or want them.
The man I am now and the child that was are two forces that cannot coexist. When they do... the collapse... and that is why I was asleep for so long.
You're trying so hard to do something that does not need to be done. Fix or save... I cannot decide but I know it cannot be done. I am not a machine. You can't rewire me and hope for the results you want. I am me, Kira Yoshikage, and this is who I am. It cannot be changed... at least not by your methods, whatever they may be.
What you fail to understand is that while you may not like the person I am, I do! I love the man I am and I relish in all the things that I do. It took a long time but I am completely happy with how I am. I enjoy what I enjoy and I accept myself for them. Perhaps you should learn to do the same when it comes to yourself and stop worrying so much about me. As far as I am concerned... I'm perfect. And it took a long time to feel that way about myself considering my enjoyments and what I do. But I succeeded... and you and all the rest are not about to make me feel differently.
I aim to be happy. Pretending or changing myself to appease the masses who refuse to understand me will not lead to a quiet and happy life. No, dear Marco, Kira Yoshikage is fine as he is.